18.3.05

away from keyboard

Miles and Miles of telephone poles.
Fallen and tossed around.
I can't talk to you anymore and I miss you.
Not in a slint way, but I miss you.
- pinback, afk

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16.3.05

the ugliness of passivity

i get so sick of yes men. everyone just fucking sits there and says yes. no one takes any initiative, no one has an opinion, no one even knows how to express an opinion, it's all just yes ma'am, all the time, without fail. being passive is unattractive. i'm sad, i'm being repelled, bouncing away...

i'm bored. i miss mike. i can't even begin to express how much. i'd give anything for one of his letters. it should be against the law to stop him from writing me.

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10.3.05

the house.

so, we find this house and go to see it. it's absolutely incredible. 5 bedrooms, 5 bathrooms, bigger than me crystal chandeliers, two gas stoves, black marble counter tops, wet bar, sunroom, huge backyard, 3 car garage, gated cobblestone driveway, two fireplaces and an oak-floored study with a bay window and vaulted ceilings. the master bedroom isn't really a bedroom, it's a small village, bigger than a tennis court, with a built in vanity, and the ensuite has a jacuzzi and a BIDET. not that anyone needs one, but you know you've done something right when there's a bidet in your ensuite right next to the jacuzzi.

the best part? i can afford it.

so why am i so nervous? i feel like i'm doing something criminal. just walking into the grand foyer with heated black marble floors and a spiral, crystal-railed staircase was so intimidating. i think for the first few months i'm going to curl up in the study (which will be my library) with a blanket and a book and close the door to make it seem small.

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6.3.05

he dots his i's with an x.

i'm looking at a house with marble floors and chandeliers while his house is a concrete sardine can. i love my roomates: my brother, my best friend and my boyfriend. his is a hardened criminal.

he dots his i's with an x, right after he says he loves me. and my heart aches.

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4.3.05

timothy leary, guest houses and the kid

you know all those people that sat round listening to timothy leary, dropping acid and dancing naked in mud puddles to carlos santana and country joe & the fish? these people now own our world's bed and breakfasts.

still no word from my little criminal. i dunno why, i always refer to him as little. call 'im kiddo. he seems little, but he's huge. the kid. with the pretty words and funny brain. he told me how he was arrested. swat team busted into his house and he tried to run. that's such a heart-wrenching image, him running from big huge gun-weilding men not exactly known for their delicate touch, you know? who'm i talking to? why am i asking questions?

i know this chick, a compulsive liar - it's amazing the things that come out of her mouth. it's real sad, 'cause it makes no one believe her when she's in trouble. i just lend an ear. couldn't be f'd to figger out what the truth is. if she wanted me to know the truth, she wouldn't lie so much.

john is going to win the apprentice because he looks like vince vaughn. even in a clown suit. and vince vaughn is about the sexiest man in the world. and sexy is good business. very good business.

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2.3.05

song of the moment: penelope by pinback.

shut up. if you just listen to pinback, you'll understand... ... might end up being a habit you can't kick...

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1.3.05

teeth like god's shoeshine

this is gonna be a recurring song of the moment 'cause it's pretty and energetic and isaac is the man: teeth like god's shoeshine by modest mouse

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