i've been a little ill this weekend, after a fun and karaoke-filled night running around downtown friday. under covers on the couch watching crappy movie after crappy movie. although lords of dogtown was good (coulda just been knoxville in that suit, yummm)... anyway, feeling a terrible lack of brain stimulation i decided to fire up twilight princess last night. after a very brief bit of playing i got to a point in the game where i was supposed to find some mirror in some old prison in which resided the unsettled souls of inmates. "k. not into this right now, back to something mindless" and i turned it off. so i saw that america's next top model was on and i couldn't think of anything much more mindless than that, except for maybe american idol. besides, i love watching them transform these women into the pictures that come out at the end, i think it's fantastic, some of the shoots. so i turned it on. stared, mind was going blank, it was working. then the photo shoot came along. one girl had to pose as a prison inmate and at judging towards the end, tyra went into some rant about the types of inmates you find in prisons. fuck. fuck. why was the universe doing this to me? it was time for drastic measures. we're talking britney's shaved head drastic. the miami vice movie with jamie foxx and colin farrell. more mindless than mindless itself. and of course, of course, it's about chasing the aryan brotherhood or the nazi low riders, some prison gang, i dunno which because i stopped it because the whole fucking night was the most perverse display of... of... i dunno. this just always happens. it always happens. this is the cruel joke i've been born into. i have no control over it anymore, no control. i can stop playing zelda, i can turn off the tv, and stop watching movies, but the universe will still find a way to get to me. fucking hell. even the horrible, gross and disgusting bridget jones sequel had prison scenes.



i ended up playing it safe and watching friday night lights because i know it's safe and the music is incredible and... within minutes i was asleep. and wouldn't you know it, i had a dream... fuck, fuck, fuck.



*pulls covers over head, goes back to sleep*